I remember
the salt and sand on mustard coloured shores
superman capes
yummy strawberry dreams
I stepped on a hedgehog

I remember
cloudless skies on land that shook
staple bombs
disrupting the brown murky depths
summer splashing away days

I remember
crying white lightning and freezing hands
bronze medal moments
chewed and lost
never to catch my mother's warm blue gaze

I remember
yellow nicotine fingers with a red faced fuse 
ears pricked and wild eyes
wait to snap and demean
my example of a man

I remember
legless daddy and muddy pants
alcohol breath 
slurred scarlet wine lies, stained white shirt
my example of a man

I remember
amongst fog and chaos on a silent hill
scratched on the stone walls of nothing
buried in the colours of the now